Just Plain Sarah

When I come to terms, to terms with this
My world will change for me

This isn’t my favorite Tori song. In fact, it probably wouldn’t even be in my top 25. It’s been years since I’ve heard it, and like most of her newer music, it doesn’t display one quarter of the emotion and talent that she’s capable of. 

I haven’t moved since the call came
Since the call came I haven’t moved
I stare at the wall, knowing on the other side
  the storm that waits for me

But yesterday I sat down at my keyboard, and the chord progression for this song just came out of me, completely unintentional. I’ve never played it before, didn’t know the chords, and haven’t heard the song recently. It was like a cell memory had suddenly woken up in my fingers.

For a sea view I have no need
I have my little pleasures
This wall being one of these

As both Tori and Ani songs tend to be (for me, anyway), this song has revisited me at a time when I can really connect to it. Like the Victorian woman whose perspective she is singing from, I’m repetitive and uneasy, stubbornly trying to will away the inevitable changes and decisions that I know (hope?) I’ll have to make soon. But I’m far from Victorian, and I don’t even own a parasol.

If I’m the Seated Woman with a Parasol
I will be safe in my frame

Like I said, it’s not an incredible song, and I wouldn’t use it to introduce anyone to Tori. But there is a little part of me vacationing there, at least for now.